ETA: sorry there’s no read more option, just scroll past this I guess

I spent the last week in a psych ward after leaving the group home. It actually wasn’t so bad, because I did get some help, and I made a lot of good friends because I was able to socialize a lot more than usual.

I’m at home now. My older sister came back from the Peace Corps (in MOROCCO, jesus) to take custody of me and my little sister. I feel terrible for ruining her life like this, but she denies that whenever I bring it up and says that she doesn’t want to talk about it.

My dad had to move out. He isn’t allowed to contact me and my little sister, but he’s obligated to financially support us; I feel like that’s the only way he’s ever really supported me (blah blah teen angst shit).

It’s a tremendous relief for me not to live with him(or foster parents), but my little sister misses him. I feel really awful about that, but my therapist and cps workers and shit keep telling me that I was “brave” for telling the truth, that it only would’ve gotten worse, that I saved my younger sister. I don’t completely believe that, and I’m pretty sure my older sister (who is sacrificing a lot to deal with this shit) doesn’t agree either.

But I’m really, really optimistic about my future for once.

To everyone who messaged me: I fucking love you all dearly.

woah I’m stupid

STILL isn’t working

I feel like angrily pooping in David Karp’s eyes

maybe it’ll work if I don’t tag it as private

and you can just scroll past the huge block of text if you don’t like it??

why the fuck isn’t this working

am I not allowed to tag stuff under private anymore

what the fuck
I thought I posted an explanation/reply to others about what’s going on with right now
and it says so on my tumble log
but the post doesn’t exist anywhere else???
k I’ll try again

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mothybutt:

spoiler: if you decide to reblog a screamer i will personally swim across the ocean, run into your house, get into your bed and piss it. i will piss your bed and you will deserve it, dickbreath